The Vision

As I sit here listening to "Girls Aloud" (I realize how stupid that sounds, but imagining 5 hot girls prancing around is reason enough to like their brand of bubblegum pop), I can't help but think of what to write. I guess it takes quite a bit to write about politics and policies, and in the current state of health that I'm in, that's the last thing I'm getting my blood boiling over for.

So, after much thought, I've decided to write about the future. We all have to ask ourselves what we're doing in this world, and what purpose do we carry, gracing this earth? I'm pretty sure that personal happiness is in everyone's minds, and I'm damn sure that most people can't think much further than monetary needs, but there must be an ultimate reason as to why you and I are even breathing air right now. There is of course, a reason why most people can't think further than monetary needs, and thats because most people find it that much more difficult nowadays to make ends meet. Brilliantly, some bloke put it in the following words:

"Just as we are learning to make ends meet, they move the ends." Government's fault, this one.

But I'm digressing. The point that I'm trying to make is that we all have to have a vision for ourselves, and in the bigger sense, our environment that we live in. And in achieving that vision or dream, we have to think of what we would want to do, and how we are going to achieve that dream. Question is, in the kind of life that we are living now, what's yours?

Somewhere in the future, I want to be a teacher. No, not because I have to (to make ends meet) but because I want to. We all know of the graduation of thinking, where you graduate in thinking as you move from Kindergarden, to Primary school, to secondary school, to college, to work. Most critical of these graduations are the early years of secondary school, or the early years of college/late years of secondary school. So theres my target. To influence and shape the minds of these young adults. I'm just about tired of complaining about Malaysian mentality, and the dumb government. Thats my plan. Influence them from young, even if its only a bunch of students of the 500,000 that graduate from secondary school every year. Even if its only one school of the thousands in Malaysia.

I'd like to die not just happily, but to die with a sense of accomplishment. Knowing that I've actually done something for the country and the community that I live in. Its not just about your own wellbeing and happiness, but about how your community is keeping up with life. Life is not just about you afterall isn't it? You're probably wondering how the words above could come from someone who likes "Girls Aloud" just because theyre hot. Well, there's your first lesson.

PDAs (no, not the electronic handheld device)

Dear Nazri (don't deserve to be called Dato' since you're a fucking moron),

Why are you the only minister to come up with dumb comments all the time (Kelantan's Chief Minister doesn't count.)? Who are you to tell me what I deem to be morally acceptable? Are you going to be forever delusional, living in your little world of what is orientally right and wrong? Remember the last time you made some dumb comments about the family bill that was tabled in parliament? What kind of a statement were you trying to make when you said "Just pass the bill, we will amend it later"? Wonder which ass you licked to make minister? Moron. Now that you left the fucking CVLB in the dumps, you'd wanna move on to destroying another portfolio? Asshole. Thanking God my MP is not as titanically moronic as this you.

Back to the gist of it all. In the obviously expanding, developing society that we live in, different people are entitled to different views on just about anything out there. The essence of democracy, as I have been made to understand, is all about choices. The freedom to not only be able to have different thoughts, but also to be able to freely exercise those thoughts. Though I may be an obvious proponent of the PDA, I am definitely aware that not everyone out there is able to stomach full out and out PDA.

There are, I admit, many out there, not just the old prudes (here I go being judgemental), but young people like you and me, who think that displays of affection should be left to the privacy of the house. But really, are we getting to the bottom of this problem, or are we merely drafting more stupid laws and bylaws, just in the name of upholding what is supposedly right in religion and morality?

"Culprits" of PDA are mainly young couples. Couples with no place to go, except shopping malls and parks. Couples who, obviously, do not have the privacy of a house to conduct their little experiments in affection. Really, the only obvious solution, is to be "affectionate" when they are together. Plus, this is much cheaper than renting a hotel room. Less costly as well, if you're a muslim and do not want to get caught by 4 perverts working for the religious department. So, do you blame them for being affectionate in public?

Then theres the law itself. Obviously, displays of affection are very subjective. What I would deem as acceptable is obviously different than that of that moronic minister of ours. Something obviously as subjective as this, is therefore open and subject to abuse by those wielding the power to exercise those laws. If at all, there should be a law, (in the name of whatever), there should be strict, and very specific guidelines. For instance, if I were to give a peck on the cheek to my mother in public, would I be liable to the same law as a couple frenching? If I were to hug my wife in public (purely hypothetical since I'm not married yet), would I be liable to the same fine as if I were to heavily pet her? See the point?

Obviously a balance has to be struck somewhere in between. If the conservatives were to have their way, there would be no contact whatsoever. If I were to have my way, I'd stare, but I'd definitely tolerate even sex in public. But really, we have to look at the objectives we are trying to achieve, before subjecting the public to further duress. We must ask ourselves, as sensible, morally upright adults, of what is truly acceptable not only to us, but our children as well. We must teach our children on the differences between maliscious/sleazy gestures, and true loving gestures. I don't know about the rest of the population, but I cannot help but smile when I see a loving old couple, still in each others arms, with the husband giving his wife a peck in the cheek. I've seen it many times here, just as I've witnessed sex in the bushes and in back alleys.

You don't have to believe in it, but to accept it and come to terms with it. If its the children you are worried about, isn't it your duty not to censor, but to teach the difference between right and wrong, about love and lust, and about being smart and being an absolute moron?

I Can Predict The Future. I can.

The greatest gift a human being could have, is the gift of foresight. The gift of being able to predict, not just with accuracy, but to predict far enough into the future to make a difference. Foresight comes not just from assembling the jigsaw puzzle that make up the events of life, but also through accurately analyzing human behavior.

Sure, there could be a million different reasons and aspects that make events in our lives. However, its the way one reacts to those events that make the difference. Really, if I could choose again what I would like to do in university that would make me no money what so ever, its got to be anthropology or to be more specific, cultural anthropology.

I enjoy observing people. I enjoy behavior differences. I enjoy picking out the little things that are so distinct in everyone it becomes a trademark. Most importantly, i enjoy spotting small, discreet body language that tell loads about a person. In doing so as well, without realizing it, I end up giving out very clear signals myself. This is probably due to the fact that I know some people are daft, and that they need clearer signs. It's true.

Somewhere in reading a person, I admit that I do get carried away. Most of the time, I read too much into a persons actions that as a consequence, I end up daydreaming very elaborate and complicated results of those actions. Most of the time, they don't come true. Sometimes, very rarely, they do.

Yesterday, while being preoccupied with the thoughts of an upcoming event, I envisioned, for a brief moment that the event wouldn't happen due to a very specific reason. Today, had passed, and I thought right. Scary how my mind comes up with little warnings about the future. Funny though, how I end up thinking the whole day as to why it didn't happen, why didn't it happen because of that reason, and what is the consequence of the event not happening. Lastly, tiring how my mind keeps thinking of what to do next, and whether I am reading the situation correctly.

I hate being right when I think about bad things happening. But that's how I operate. I think of the worse case scenario and take precautions. When nothing goes wrong, I start thinking that something will go wrong. I'm such a pessimist. But at least I am prepared for the worst. Not quite sure if I'm prepared for the best though. Haven't felt that for a longg time.